FINALLY i met him. :)

i saw him laying on my bed.

dad. father. daddy. papi. abbi. abah. otosan. pappa. bapa. (say it in different languages, still it means the same :] )

yes. i saw Daddy laying on my bed.

he was sick that time.

i came up to him.

i was taking care of him.

i asked if he's fine and all..

then i don't know.

suddenly we were both quarreling.

i remembered i was saying :-

me: daddy! i miss you! been long since i've seen you!

Daddy: what? no. you've seen me always!

me: nooo..! it's been like, what? 5 years since you've left us!

(somehow it was that long when it's actually like 2 years?)

Daddy: no! ohh! so you want me to leave you that long??!

me: no no no!! i was just saying the fact! you left us 5 years!

Daddy: no! it's been 2 years!

me: NO! FIVE years!

( i insisted five years when he was saying the truth)

then we quarreled.

i ended up crying to Mom.

i told her what happened.

everything turned blur.

then this man. this white man was suddenly there.

an unknown man.

i was somehow calling him "DAD".

i was quarreling with him too.

then these words came out from my mouth,

"i wish you weren't my dad! I MISS MY DADDY!! I WANT HIM!"

and guess what?

i was eating a few cakes Mom made for us.

it was delicious. yummy. délicieux. delizioso.

there were cupcakes, birthday cake, anycake you want. name it.

they were there.

the cupcakes were my fave that time.

i went to my Daddy. showed him the cupcake. let him tried it.

somehow Daddy changed into the stranger i called dad.

and i was somehow friendly with him.

i heard my phone making some noise.

it was an animal making noises.

yeah. noises. it was my chicken ringtone.

i realized it was the alarm i set at 12.30pm.

POOF!

i woke up.

realizing that was all just a dream.

perhaps a bad dream?

i am happy to have that dream.

because i get to meet my Daddy.

to be able to converse with him after all this time.

even just in a dream.

i am sad to have that dream.

because someone was replacing my Daddy.

i don't ever want that to happen.

i LOVE my Daddy so much for that to happen.

please Allah! don't replace Daddy with anyone in my heart.

i don't mind if Mom is remarrying someone else now.

(i don't know if this ever going to happen though)

but i DO mind if that stranger could make me forget Daddy.

:(

after all the thinkings. i went back to sleep.

teeheees :P

toodles.